A bank holiday!

It's a bank holiday today because of where Xmas day has fallen this year, but people have still gone to work today as the sales are still on and people are trying to get back to normal life after Xmas. I had a good one this year, got my ipod and I've spent the last two days getting it up and running, its nearly there now.

I'm feeling tired because once again it was 1am when I went to bed. My dad took my family out to see Avatar in 3d at the imax in Manchester. It was really cool! I'm not one for science fiction movies, but I got into Avatar because of the 3d images and this whole new world and everything that had been created! But there was too much and too drawn out battle scenes in it for me and I'm growing tried with plots about big headed Amercians taking over the 'smaller people' to get what they want. I'd like to see a movie about people discovering new worlds and trying to understand them, without the whole 'I am an Amercian therefore I shall take you to war, kill you all, then rule your planet to get more money' plot. Anybody know one of those movies?

Saturday night-boxing day! we watched movies on our DIY home movies screen. Firstly was Monsters vs Aliens which was good, then Rush Hour 3 which grew boring because of the not so funny jokes and I found that the out-takes were much more funny then I movie itself. Lastly was Hell-boy 2, which I only got into because it had such a Pan's Labrthyin feel to it. It was done by the guy who did Pan so I guess that's why the tooth fairies ect looked oddly familiar. It was okay and the different take on Elves was interesting. So that was another 1am bed time!

The snow has almost all melted now, which is good, but we are expecting more. My cold has come back, which is a pain and I still have lots of reading to do! Hungry now tho, time to eat!

Today's pics!

My dog Sandy in the snow!

My brothers and I built this snowman which later turned into a bear and Sandy helped too!

It's Christmas!

Well in a few hours it'll be Xmas Eve and my Christmas will start officially. I'm looking forward to it and getting my I-pod touch! Though I wish I could do away with the Christmas stress and for me that has already begun with my brother. He really knows which buttons to press to wind me up and it seems he is really pushing it tonight. I've no idea how to cope with him and he seems to take get delight in making me feel upset. Maybe its just the middle-child-syndrome or its national pick on Hails day and nobody told me.

Moving on, I think! There has been a lot of snow in the last few day and its stuck. It's the deepest snow fall I've seen in a good few years before Xmas eve and its even snowing right now! It's large sticky snowflakes, more chaos for tomorrow now......that's the only thing I've been hearing on the news about all the travel problems and how things are might to get better, but I don't think so watching it fall from the sofa. Sandy has just got back in after nipping out, she's covered in snow but not wet. She likes the snow! I guess because it gives her more things to chase. I don't fancy going out now!

I braved it before in my skirt to help with the Christmas food shopping which went well but the shop shelves looked so empty as if someone had said there was going to be a food shorted or something! Guess most people have left their shopping to the last minutes because of the weather. The snow is fun but it gets boring so quickly.......

It's Christmas!

At last the Christmas decs have gone up in my house! I'm currently sitting in the living room with my parents, watching a film -sorry its not a Christmas one!-But the Christmas tree looks really good, the colour scheme is red, gold and sliver and I just love the glass ornaments and the teddy bears, plus the Jingle Bug is also in the tree! For those that don't know him, he comes from a book all about Christmas with bugs and its a kid's book. It's one of my favourites tho! Also the wooden beams are covered in white fairy lights and the ceiling boarder has been done too now.

The tinsel is on the door, the xmas cards are stringed up along the wall and we were listening to xmas music before! So now all that is need as the presents under the tree and for it to start snowing! :) Feels strange, feeling Christmasy but I just can't believe it is here again! Last year was my first Holiday from uni and I can still remember hurrying out of my room whilst the Amercians were getting their goodbyes and then being dragged into photographs by my SA. This year it'll be different, I'll be leaving my housemates and hoping that they remember to empty the fridge and bin before they leave! I'm looking forward to getting my i-pod touch and spending time with my family.

I'm almost finished with my second to last essay now. Still got a fast passed week ahead of me now, the last week = an essay due in every day, 3 nights out and trips to orm market once more. I shall try and make the most of it and not get too stressed! I give my presentation on monday, scary! Then I'm out to tea with my eng lit friends. Tuesday my play script is due in and I'm off to a friend's xmas party that night. Wednesday my poems are due in and then I'm off to Liverpool for a night of celebrations! Thrusday my last day and my change to get my last essay in. If not it'll be friday before I go home, because that is when it is due in, but I don't want to be worrying about handing it in. have to see, bit if a pain tho!

Then I'm going to take a break from work and just chill out! I so need to right now!

This is me, hunting for Penguins in Liverpool! Its a bit like the Superlambanana thing, but this time there are penguins covering the whole of Liverpool! It was fun finding them.

A new month and its nearly Christmas!

I'm not sure where I'm finding the time to write this, because I've so much work to do right now! It's all uni work and writing assessments and reading. I had a chill out last night, grabbed my friends and watched some movies! We did a lot of talking and they did alot of drinking. We also listened to some music at 1am. I had to get up today at 7 to make it to my lecture and it was like 3am when I went to bed. I'm tried, but I've had a good day, firstly read some of Anne Rice's Merrick and I've nearly finished it now and it was the good part where the ghost turns up! my lecture was boring and I suffered from not printing out the slides. Then descovered that for my essay I didn't have to answer the question but show the sources I'd use and way, which is pretty cool but I'm starting to think is going to be harder the answering the question!

After I went to the IT desk and went through the blogging system for my edgehill blog-link coming later!-they use wordpress in the old form so I need to go over there in a minute and write my first blog there! Then I hit the LRC and returned some books to take out some more. Shockingly I found a lot of books that I could use for the essay above, so I took them out and then some Shakespeare for my scriptwriting. I've written a play about fairies and I'm hoping A Midsummer's Night Dream is going to help me write my fairies speech better then I had it.

I'm going to spend the rest of the day writing about a poet and then I might look at my poems again and choose some to be read out tomrrow. Going home tomorrow but must take work with me! I'm just so busy!

"What? You got a job?"

Ha! The title is so true and has been the reactions of my parents and friends over the last few hours. I'm way pleased with myself. But this job might shock some of you so....my new job is a blogger for my uni's website! :) Turns out I'm kind of good at blogging and clearly I was what they were looking for which you know is a good thing because the job was open to everyone! So to be able to have been picked out of such a huge range of people is amazing. I'm more pleased with the fact I can now help more people make the right choice of coming to edge hill and studying in the place which I love. I get paid too, but I'm not really bothered about that-since it won't be a lot really-I'm just taking this as a change to reach more people with my written words, plus it'll look good when appealing for another job! So I'm happy, mega proud of myself and I'm so looking forward to the doors that this is going to open for me! Image all the people I'm going to meet! more possible buyers of my novels!

I'm getting a head of myself now though. I've a new blog....well not me my cactus, so if you want to check that out http://cactusbob9.wordpress.com/ I'll be adding to that later. I've work to do that, I should be doing now in fact! my presentation, which is okay really, done my research now just need to draw up a new plan of action and then do that. So I'm kinda hyper right now...maybe its the Pepsi, maybe its the job or maybe its the heavy metal music in my ears? :)

Tell me where it all went wrong and I'll pick up the pieces

It just sounded like a good title! So the crazy student house now has its own website http://www.auberginecentral.com/index.html This was set up by house mate sam and really does show some of the horrors we've had to cope with! I'll post pics too after this. But things are seeming to settle down in the aubergine now. We made it through the first talk about bill last night! No one put up a fight or moaned over it and everyone is now paying someone for all the bills in october, november, december and though this is a sudden loss of of money to me and Abi, it has to be done. But how we're going to eat for the next month is a mystery to me! But I'm sure we'll find something! So I'm currently in my room, listening to pardise lost, who are a cool band! (But I've read the play/book also) waiting for a parent to turn up and take me home! Not been there in two weeks and no doubt a lot has happened. So I'm looking forward to that.

Other news;

I've a lot of uni work a head of me. lots of things due in the last two weeks before we break for xmas. the 1st december is just over 4 weeks away and so I've 5/6 weeks to do a 10 minutes presention on a 1700 play with the theory of feminism, 1,500 word annotated biblography about the realism in robinson cruose, 1,000 word reading as a writer essay which is on the poet cliff yates, 15 minute stage script with 1,000 word self-assessment and annotated biblography, lastly 4 poems about a theme to be present in a creative style and with the above added things! And then, after xmas 6 poems from class as above also! so I'm busy...very busy...

Too busy to be going out, also moneyless. :( but still you need to let your hair down and last monday night I went to a quiz night and they have prizes for the best team name and my team won. I won't write on here what the name was because to win you had to have a very un-innocent name. but let's just say that jelly babies rule! So I better post up pics of the prizes too!

This is me with the prizes!

So we had new fire alarms fitted and not only was this a pain they kept beeping for 24 hours every minute whilst they installed themselves!

we also had to have door slammers fitted on every door. these are a pain as they bang so loudly they make you jump and we now have to waste time slowly shutting our doors to stop this from happening!

The broken cupboard door, still not been fixed!

Sam's notices is funny tho!

I had a good title but I forgot it.....

I've been busy! In fact very busy, no stop busy really. Things have been happing so fast I can't believe its nearly thrusday already. Where does the week go? So an update is needed I think! So I'm typing from the uni house (The Aubergine still!) my room in my bean bag chair, my laptop balanced on my chair and right now Pretty women from Sweeney Todd is playing on my media player. Also the beeping of my new fire alarm, the one in the hallway and next door keep going off every few seconds. The battaries are changing, but I don't get why they have to beep because of this but they have been doing it since 10am! I've kinda got use to it now. Anyway, tomrrow a poet is coming to poem writting class and I'm reading his poems. I'm also talking on msn and playing my new addiction- cafe world! on facebook. :) Also new with the house is the door slammers, which are a pain, but a must. Still it feels like our lives are being stopped by them, no more can you leave your door open for a friend to wonder in....I've read a novel in four days-Robinson Crusoe-I liked it and really its all about one man's search for God. I read Dr Fastus too and that was good. I wrote an essay about the treament and plot of a radio script I'd pretained to write-that's what you had to do- and I've just remember my other one that I need to print out for tomrrow because its due in friday but I'm not in uni then. So I was going to hand it in tomorrow. Next update: I've wrote no more on R3, I'm rewriting the sad story my friend told me and I've written some more poems. At the minute uni is all work and play! I'm so looking forward to the weekend-I'll take a break from work and chill out with my best friend!

cold in October

Okay, so it's kind of a silly pun really, of course its cold in October! You say that word to people and they think of the cold and damp, of the leaves turning to bright colours of red, gold and brown and then falling off the trees. October is also the height of Autumn really, because you can really feel the cold now as the last of summer's heat is drained out of the earth. You can smell it in the air too, you know things are changing around you! Beside from that then and the pun, I've a bad cold or what the doctor has called..... *Sneezes*.... ah, sorry......I'll just wipe the snot off the keyboard.......It's been nine days now since I fell ill and really its been more like having a mild flu then a cold! I've spent most of my time moaning, whilst slummed on the sofa watching day time TV and wondering who in their right mind really watches this stuff 24/7? I was so bored I turned to watching recordings of things I'd missed whilst being at uni-yeah, my TV is still broke-and being on the PC; random stuff on the Internet and conversations with friends. I played on the WII yesterday-blom blox until my arm was sore I'd become bored of hitting things. Lately though I've become addicted to watching my dad playing Bioshock on the Xbox 360. Okay, so I'm not really sure what is happening or the story, but so far I've come to understand that two men have gone off and created this world were taking this medicine called 'Adam' makes you superhuman and there's another called 'Eve' which helps to control it. So all this people have taken this medicine and it's changed their DNA so they're no longer human and the two guys who built this world have had a falling out. So 'you' as this weird, crazy, gun wielding guy has to go on these missions to solve things-whilst killing a lot of these 'splicers' which are the people now changed by the 'Adam'-to help, I guess, close down the world. There are also things called Elite bouncers and Little sisters, which is were this whole game gets a little bit too creepy for me, because these bouncers look like men wearing very old fashioned diving suits and they have huge guns! They are used to protect the little sisters who are little girls possessed, who go around collecting the blood of dead people. Part of the missions is to save so many of these little girls. My brother says there's more to it then that, but dad's not got there yet. So I guess I'll just have to keep watching him play!
Before I finish this, I must announce the birth of my 5Th second cousin! A baby girl called Summer Louise and she was born Thursday 15Th at 5.38am and she weighted just over 8 pounds. She was three weeks early, but she and mum are doing really well. I can't wait to meet her! Speaking of which I must be off to make a baby basket for her now and also get some more rest.

First weekend home after 2 weeks at uni.

Okay, so I've been living in the house or the Aubergine as it was nicknamed and has still stuck, in the middle of ormskirk town, 20 minutes walk from Edge Hill Uni, for under two weeks now. I guess I've been meaning to write, but I've not had the wanting or the inspiration. I've taken a huge break from really writing after I finished R2 as well, this has not helped, but was something I so needed to do. So now I'm finished in uni for the weekend and I know I'm going to have to do some creative writing work- 6 poems and a 15 minute script are needed for me to pass this first term. I also face a ton of reading, which I knew, but since more books have been added to the lists and I've still not finished MD5 though I promised myself I would, I'm kinda dreading it. But still that's life as a student!
Generally things with the house have been good, though one of the guys is stuck to his girlfriend and there really isn't a time when I don't see him with out her. Not something I'd normally be bothered about and I'm only just a bit jealous of their love, but they are noisy just talking to each other and they are prone to starting an argument over the smallest, simplest of things and then saying it was nothing! She's always around now and she just bugs me with her childish ways-she's like 22/22. Plus she really wants a baby and that annoys me because she's just so child like in her ways- like a 6 year old really! always demanding things and doing nothing of any help, just creating more mess-so how does she expect to rise a child herself? I guess she's just looking at the cute, loving and bonding side of things, not the time, money, energy, creativity, passion and strength it takes to rise a new life in this harsh world. I bet though she'll have a baby and some where in the world there's a great couple who would make the perfect parents and they'll never have a baby. God is strange like that, maybe he's testing us all in his own way....
Moving on to the next house problem! The 2ND girl I'm meant to be living with is currently not here and living with someone else in ormskirk. She's hardly talking to us about anything and its frustrating us all because we really don't know what she's up too. To make matters worse, we can't do anything about it because its all down to her and the landlord! At the minute we strongly believe that she plans to tell us that she doesn't want to move in with us and then we might end up with someone else- who's worse, living with us.....or we might end up with a really great and cute guy! I can dream right????? Still we're waiting with held breath for her word and it feels like we are puppets in a box waiting to jumped into her hands whenever she comes close. I'm rebelling! I'm not being her toy and I'm so not covering up for her when the landlord shows up in a few minutes. I'm gonna tell him that she's not been living with us and she's cut all the commutations off with all of us. Which is the truth.
Anything else to add? Not really, beside from a good weekend at home. I've been busy shopping! and I've had my hair cut too now. I've had fun with my family and I'm not really looking foreward to going back to the house tonight now!

Enrolment day!

So I enrolled at uni today for my second year! Happy, glad it was sorted out fast too, just the queuing was bad. Just lots of people in the wrong lines and the lines going on forever. Would be easier if just one person could enrol you, but it takes at lest 4 if not more! Or why can't we enrol online? just confirm everything and click go and then just pick up cards and stuff when we get there? People just waste their lives in queues, just wanting to get to places and things, live would be better if there were no queues!
I had to go and see the house too and its much better then last time now. My room is my own at last! and it may be the 3rd biggest in the house but I don't care, just the views outside my window and my white floorboards....its twice the size of my room at home. I just have to get all my stuff into it now! That's on Saturday, my moving in day. Till then I've to clean my room, pack my stuff and pack the car. Then there's a huge list of things to do at uni and the house. But I'll just take these things as they come.
I can't wait now to start my uni live once more, looking forward to it now. Helps that I finished my novel now and most of my Eng lit reading. Feeling tried, so I'm off to bed early.

The loss of another password yet again!

Why is it we just forget the passwords we put on things? They are there to protect our stuff in this crazy world of online hacking, but when you come to log in to something after not using it for a while, don't you get that dreadful feeling of 'what if I've forgotten my password and I'm locked out forever'? Luckily, half the time you remember the password, or you have it wrote down somewhere; on your phone, notebook or on a scrap of paper stuck under the table with a piece of chew gum. But in that rare case when your password is lost to that land of never ending lost things, you can just hit the 'send me my password now!' button or the 'reset our password' and once its done and you have your new password, you can just sit back, breath out that deep breath you've been holding that's been making you turned blue and began to do whatever it was on said website that you thought you'd have lost your account on. Thanks for that! Anyway moving on. It's only a week and two days now till I got back to uni! Kinda scared but excited too. Soon my crazy blog can be about uni again and not my boring summer. Things are not going so good with the house though. I came back from my wet, windy and wild week camping in a field in Anglesey, to discover that the house was not really how it should have been. Once again its left me wondering what cruel twist of fate decided to dish out this much stress over a house to me and poor house-mates. Would rolling the dice of Fate again make it better? I don't know, but one thing is for sure; its not over yet! It's going to take a while for peace to come to that house, but I'm as positive as ever! I won't let the house bet me...even if it does turn out to be some mad killer house and everyone who lives there ends up dying. Hopefully things will look up soon. I've finished Sense and Sensibility now and I'm sorry to say it was a bad book and needs to be burnt. I've also read the three Jacobean witchcraft plays and they weren't so bad. Should read my Shakespeare now, but I've had enough of reading stuff I must read, so I'm taking a break and doing some of my own novel writing. Though that has its down side at the minute! I must make all these stories connect some how....gonna take a huge plan and a lot of Iron Maiden to get me through this!

Has become addicted to knitting!

When people think about the word knitting, they imagine a bunch of old grannies sitting in a room together with tea and cakes, busy knitting scarfs and jumpers. These, they then send off to relatives as Christmas presents, which are then shoved at the back of a cupboard and forgotten till the next cleaning day. When discovered the knitted item is tossed to a Charity shop, perhaps never or only wore once, because it is too big/small/bright/childish or just out of fashion. For a long time now I've known that knitting is a dying skill. This is mostly because people don't want to learn it or think its just too hard for them to understand. Also because in the world of today when we can just pop down to a shop or order straight from the Internet, all the clothes one could ever want are easy to buy, (and often so cheap it makes you wonder how shops can really afford to sell items for less then the cost of the material it was made from!) so there's no need to make your own clothes like there has been in the past.

I remember going to primary school in jumpers and a pinny that my mum had knitted and feeling so different to the other children who were wearing new factory made things. She'd knit other jumpers for me as well and I guess because I was young, I had no taste for her home-made clothes and this lead her to stop knitting for awhile

My mum has recently picked up knitting again and over the past few years she has made a lot of things for me, herself and my youngest brother and she's even subscribed to a knitting magazine! Mostly these are things like jackets for the summer and winter, which look really nice and get lots of compliments from people. Baby clothes for my cousin's children or her friends and she's currently keeping some for mine and my brothers' children in the near future. Fingerless gloves, cuffs and socks have been her hardest to make creations and she has had a lot of fun knitting toys from Alan Dart's patterns; two cats, a witch, Jack O'lantern, a pirate, a frog prince and Yuletide Gnomes.

She taught me to knit awhile ago and I can purl (Basically knitting backwards) too, but because it took me a long time to do these skills correctly she has never taught me how to cast on and cast off (putting the wool on the needles and taking it off). So last week we choice the pattern to make the Christmas presents for my uni friends (because the Yuletide Gnomes we knitted last year went down a treat.) and because it was so simple to do she taught me how to cast on and off. Now I'm busy making lots of knitting and practising with different wools with my new learnt skills! At the minute I'm also learning to decrease (were you put to stitches together and make the knitting smaller) which can some times be tricky, but I'm getting the hand of it now.

So Knitting has become a passion for me now and it really does run in my family! I've many memories of my Nana knitting blankets and hats whilst I was curled in front of her gas fire watching TV on cold winter nights. My dad's mum also use to knit and so did my mum's great aunt (who taught my mum because she knits left handed) I feel happy to carry on what I see as a tradition for my family and hopefully my friends will just love their presents this year!

This is Willamina witch and Jack O' lantern, The Yuletide Gnomes!
sitting on my bookcase at uni and
both were made by my mum.

Ally and her Gnome

long time no bloggin'!

And so it seems, but there's really been nothing to add! I've not been doing a lot really other then writing R2 and reading MD and Eve. It feels I've been mostly wasting my days with sleep and bad TV. But there's little else to do at the minute. Most of my friends are on holiday or just too far away from me to go and see them or meet up at some point in-between. Though I've been promised by my two best friends we shall be meeting up soon, it has yet to be set. So I must wait a little longer and find better things to do with my summer days. Since I last wrote, I've earned a little money babysitting my neighbours kids and hopefully proved to her that I'm okay to do that, if she needs me to. My house has recovered well from my 21st party through there's still two boxes of pirate stuff hanging around that really don't have any where else to go. I've had a few ideas for stories and some ides for R2. This idea though happened last night when a guy said it walking down my street in the early hours of the morning; "I want to rent a dishwasher.....how much is that going to be?" So I thought I'm sure its possible to rent a dishwasher, though buying one would be easier. But I thought what would happen if when this dishwasher showed up it was a human?????? and out there some where is a company that pay people to rent out people who only wash up the pots? Sounds good. It'll be going with these two comments that happened on the same day whilst I was in Liverpool; "I didn't know you could read in Waterstones!" (As said by a woman in a book shop.) And "There wasn't a piano in the one you sent me." as said by a man walking down the road with his friend, and this one as well; "The umbrella is the devil's work," as said by an old woman in Ormskirk. So I'm thinking of putting them in a funny short story book.....so comments would be nice here!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mostly it now, going out soon to rent DVDs of the night.....should be good, since we've choice Marley & me, Knowing, Watchmen and Yes Man.

I'm off to see Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince in less then half an hour now! I'm excited and so looking forward to it! Though it would have been nicer if I wasn't the one paying for the tickets for my family! Anyway I just hope it's good and I'm not really that bothered about how close to the book it turns out to be really. I've not read the book in ages! Got to read books for Eng lit next year now and that really is taking up all my time! Some more good news is that I've started writing again now! Not sure how but I just moved a few things around in the book I'm writing and then I thought well I can started chapter 15 now and that's what happened. I've nearly finished 16 now, though that's a bit tricky because it's broken up into three different places! Manchester, Ireland and Liverpool. :) Going now. might have to come back later and do a review of Harry Potter 6!

Is missing uni life!

Not for the first time am I missing uni. I guess mostly the freedom and not having a parent/brother pop up every few minutes and ask you to do something or just distract you. But I already knew this summer would drag. A school child can't wait for summer and then it goes so fast, but me, who's life is now changed by uni life, didn't want the summer and knows that it is going to be a long boring one.

I can't write! I'm struggling to do it and mostly this is because of lack of 'alone space', inspiration and the constant nagging of friends-who are disparate to get their hands on the next set of chapters- but for reasons mostly relating to this, won't be getting them till I say so.- So I'm frustrated at myself, I can't get my stress relief and then I just get lazy and waste my day on stupid things like facebook farmtown, watching silly TV shows and listening to bad music.

I guess also there is nothing to look forward to this summer.....we're not going on Holiday and normally this is the one break I really love! No matter where we go-mostly some place in England in the car or in Wales camping, or what the weather is like, I just love getting out and having breaks from everything! TV, Internet, the house and sometimes my family and just the idea of exploring new places and seeing new things, its just something I like to do and does make my summer. But this year and it is mostly because of the money problems in the world, we won't be going anywhere and this is also part of my depression.

My mum's stress rubs off on me far to much. kinda like a nasty cold, once she's got it, I'm bound to get it and so this has happened tonight. It's the normally thing now......the lack of stuff done around the house which I'm sure also comes down to a number of things: I'm a girl, I'm the oldest, I now go to uni not school and I don't have a job and really I'm lazy and spend much of my time in bed or doing something that she things I don't need to be doing. So my mum moans about my lack of 'doing' around the house, which is fair enough and I'd understand if I didn't do anything, but that is not the case, I do stuff! okay, not every day like and maybe only when I'm in the right mood or have been forced but nobody is perfect and I feel like she's just out to get me because of the way things are.

So she told me to get a job and of course people know how hard that is during this time, but still I looked and there is a lot of jobs out there, but my problem is I lack the qualifications that most of these jobs want! I can't drive, do computers, plumbing, phone sales or door to door sales, teaching, child care, nursing, cooking, cleaning or caring. My areas are with animals-pet shops and animal homes and with books and creative writing. There's hardly any of these jobs going in my area. So what then? Behind the till at a supermarket or a bar? Knowing what my friends who work at these places say I'd rather not. I guess I'm really am being Naive about this job thing. I've never had one before. I've done work experiences and helped out, but a paid job I've never done. I've led a sheltered life and its hard to break away from that and of course what I really want to do; to be an author and poet, just doesn't happen over night and that's why I'm doing what I'm doing at uni! To live my dream! I've not got the energy at the minute through, all been spent on fighting and job searching.

I feel like doing what my dog is doing right now! Sleeping at my feet, safe in her dream world of chasing rabbits, postmen on cycle bikes and eating large juicy bones. Then waking up and being wanted and loved. A dog's life would be easier then this one right now!

Planning my party

It'll be in my 21st birthday party on Thursday (2nd July 2009) and then my party on the Saturday. I'm happy and excited and really can't wait. I decided that the party would be pirate themed as I'm a fan of pirate stuff right now and because I thought it would make a more fun party. So we've been gathering things such as pirate flags, bunting with skulls on, chocolate coins, pirate ship pinata and other such things! I've invited a ton of people and the party is going to last all night! Must be off, planning to do!

My last night

So it has come to this; my last night in my hall. I can't believe its really here and tomorrow well, in fact later on today, I'll official leave my room forever and might never come back. It has gone so quick and I've grown so much. There are so many people I hold as friends and I think that if there was more then 3 people (not counting myself) left now, it'd be harder to leave this place I've called home for little under a year now. But it is empty and the feeling of just emptiness and silence can no longer go on for me. I feel sorry for the 3 boys who have ended up staying because they can't move into their houses or as my SA is doing going home by a number of trains with all his stuff! I heard that on the other side of the hall (As ER is split into two groups of 20 by the common room) there was just one guy there and I thought I won't really want to be him, over there all by myself. I don't think I'd feel safe and I'd get bored too quick. Here I've got my next door neighbour and we had our last music war today. He decided to turn the volume of his music up over mine and so I put mine up, which made him put his up. I give in and went to have a shower, when I got back he'd turned his music off. Turns out, he's also blocked from his friend's list on facebook. Not that I really care, but it was just the shock of it! So also there are two guys down stairs; my SA who's to the right of me and the boy who I'm sharing a house with next year is opposite and one door down (Because opposite me is the kitchen) from me. So yes, it is dead here and time to move on for me. Of course I could have stayed, my parents would let me home whenever I want but really I don't think I could face an other week being alone in my room. Of course I go home to face being alone there for some weeks before my brothers are off. But there's something about being at home that is different to being in halls; a strange comfit, safe and happy feeling, sense of true family and love. So I leave my new found freedom in my new student world, to go back home and well if I don't find a job, the long summer is set to bore me until I can come back to uni and take my role up as a student once more!
Peace peeps and keep rocking! :)

Typed from the bean bag chair I'm currently stuck in.

Nothing much to type really as not a lot has been happening around here. More people have been leaving and for me there has been a lack of tearful good byes and hugs. It kind of feels like for the last year I've been on an island with all this new people and now everyone has made little boats, packed their stuff into them and set sail to drift across the Ocean Of Life. Of course I'll try and keep and touch with them all but what has been this year can never be again and there a lot of sadness in that thought for me.
I've been trying to record my thoughts and feels about this and well this sort of poem I wrote on my other blog before seems to just suit how things are around here at the minute.
My hall feels like a desert, all dried up and just full of sand which the wind blows through because it has become bored and lonely. A tumbleweed might roll passed every now and then. The Cataus may flower for a few days, but it is clear that things have slowed down and are slowly ticking over in silence, like a car engine waiting. Some parts of the world feel like they are dying and like the leaves of a plant that are starved of water and so wither away to nothingness. But water and time can replenish them and so though things feel like they are dying because they are coming to an end, there is still more out there. Waiting in the silence, watching from the wings and soon enough life will flourish again and the silence will be broken.
Might make it into a poem later.
Looks like a storm night tonight as well. Wind is picking up and shaking the trees, its dark already and that's strange for 7pm. I'm staying into night anyway, got stuff to read and my novel now nicked named R2D2 because its the second book and the title starts with an R and well the D2 part just happened because one my friends who's helping me with it has this whole thing about star wars.
Right I shall get myself out of the bean bag chair and go and shut the window before the storm hits.

Things are drawing to an end

It's nearly the end of my second last week in my hall at uni now. It has gone so fast and I don't want to leave! It feels wrong to do so, but many others have already gone including all but one of the people I can normally be found with. I've been slowly packing up my stuff and it seems I've gathered so much in my large room that it is going to be hard to fit everything back into my small box room at home. But I'm leaving this place with some many memories! Happy, sad, excited, pleased, bored and scared times. I've made so many new friends too, who unlike my friends at other educational places have really seen who I am and just accepted me. I'm happy about this, it feels I've finally found people who like me just the way I am and have no plans to use it against me.

Leaving my first year is hard enough, but I keep thinking about leaving at the end of my third year! At least for the next two years I'll be coming back, but after then I won't and it'll be even harder to let go and move on. I think it'll be hard for all my friends too. It's hard to explain to people unless you've been to a uni which is so great it feels like home, you meet some great people who really get you, you grow and change so much and learn lots about yourself. So unless this has happen to you, it's hard for me to explain things.

Coming to Edge Hill Uni has changed my life for the better! I'm no longer the person people knew at College, high school, primary and at home. I'm more confident, more out going and up for new things, I've learned that drinking can be good in small amounts, living with strange and different people can be very hard, frustrating but rewarding! Friendships can be born over strange things and at strange times and when you're happy; time just slips away from you so much that you wonder where it has all gone to, but you wouldn't go back and change a second of it. Edge Hill might be in the middle of the countryside with only a small town next to it and Liverpool half an hour on the train, but to me it is one of the best places in the world and it always will be.

Mostly everyone in my hall and the second group of Americans. (E.R. 2009)

Some of the best people I'm normally with.

Me and my best friends!

It's all about the windows!

People think I'm being funny and just ranting over nothing but my dad has now decided to get rid of our wooden frame, stain glass windows and go for plain plastic, double glazed ones. I love my windows, they've been a part of my life for 20 years now and they make the house, my house! and my room, my room! without them it just won't be the same! And the other problem is my window shape just won't be the same! Anyway, the other problem is because of the way my room is there's no way you can really get to the window (Picture a box, if you will-slightly elongated at the ends and a window is at one end. Now the window has two large windows at the bottom and two smaller windows at the top with a cross like shape in-between them. then in front of the window there is the end of a high bed, with a large wooden desk under it. Then on the other side is a bookcase, full of books bottom and top.) So Today I had to make some room for the guy to come and measure up the windows and the only way he could do that was for me to move my bookcase, so I first made my bed and moved everything off my floor and then I emptied my bookcase and then moved it into my brothers' room. then my dad tells me that my window sill must be emptied too! and what have I just done with all my books/dvds? stacked them in the only space I can reach the far end of my window sill from. So I had to clear the other corner and then I slightly moved everything forward. So now hopefully a tape measure can go in the gap. So that's done! but when they come to fit the windows my room will have to be emptied and stripped. So I know my room needs to be tidy and stuff for all my uni things to go in there, so I'll use that to do this, but it now seems I'm going to be at uni till I must move out Sunday 28th June, because I don't want to be round when they do the windows....it'll be just too heartbreaking for me and I won't be able to sleep in my room before and after too. My brothers' will have to sleep in the tent outside and my parents in the living room. So I'm having to stay, which really doesn't bother me because at least the choice has now been made for me! The other thing is that hopefully the windows will be fitted on Thursday/Friday which is my last days at uni anyway, in time for me to move back and also for my birthday party!!!!! which is on Saturday 4th July 2009. My birthday's on the Thursday 2nd July!!!!!!!!!! So hopefully everything will go okay there! I know it has to be done but it hurts and I'm trying to make people understand but its hard.......mum and dad understand it-they like our windows too-but of course there are some good sides to the new windows 1. no more painting the frames, easily clean and no rotting/leaking, keeps warm air in, looks nicer/more modern and of course the house can be sold for slightly more if the time ever comes.
So I'm glad to be back at uni now -no more cleaning and fighting! I can just look after me, which is so what I need right now! anyway plans for tomorrow have been set -watching the Pirates of the Caribbean trilogy!!!! Should be fun and I can spend the next four weeks loving my crazy student life of my first year.

Freedom!

Hey, my exam is now over! It went okay really, the questions were suitable to what I'd been studying and well I wrote like three pages on each question and I stuck to the points and stuff, so hopefully I'll have got enough marks to pass now. The exam was also my last thing of my first year. Seems to have gone by so quickly... must be all the parties and late nights! Anyway, it seems kinda sad that everyone is packing up to go home and we won't be living together any more. :( It's like another chapter has been turned in the book of life and though it can be read again it can never really be re-lived. But I don't think I'd really change any of it. I've grown so much just being here and discovering stuff about myself, its funny to think that there was a time-only like 2 years ago! when I decided uni really wasn't for me and I'd never go.....I wonder what would happen if that had been my thinking in the spring of 2008? and where I would be now because I wouldn't be sitting in my room, in my hall, on campus, with my best friend sitting in my bean bag chair beside me and the knowledge that being writer was my purpose in life and what I was born to do. Because it really is, I've decided that now, I doubt I could try to be anything else and why should I not just give into what I want to do? Even if nobody publishes my stories or reads them as novels -not just on a computer screen, I'm only truly happy when I'm writing now.
Many people said I should become a teacher because I just look and seem to be one, but though I knew that it's an option, to me teaching has never seem to be me-it's not who I want to be! Same with my first goals to be come a vet or do some other job with animals- that's not me any more and well though I'd love to be the lead singer in the world's greatest heavy metal band ever and be madly in love with the base guitarist and for him to be madly in love with me, I know that's only a fantasy and very unlikely to ever happen. So I must now follow my heart and take up my gift of writing and use it to make myself happy.
Well, it least I now have the whole summer ahead of me to do such a thing. I might even be tempted to get something published this year!

May's First Post

I've been busy finishing off my last essays these last two weeks and luckily I manged to get everything in last Friday! So now that's all done I just need to revise for Eng lit 2 exam and really I'm not looking forward to that. Its not the exam itself because I hardly get scared or stressed about exams, my motto with them has always been just as long as you've revised and you've tried your best on the day, that is all you can do and you should be proud of yourself. For this exam its more of the subject; I've just got a problem with theory, its complicated and hard to understand it, therefore I hate it and this has been the circle for me now. I've no choice now, so I'm going to revise and just try my best. So all the teaching on my course finished on Friday so at least Ive been able to see the whole year through. I'm pretty sure I've passed the year too, as I've not failed any essays and my marks have been around the 60 mark and I've been told repeatedly that they lower the marks slightly to make you do better next year. They also wipe all your marks out at the start of next year too and though I know the marks this year don't count, I'll still feel like they are a part of me but I'll use them to make my other essays better. Next year counts a hell of a lot and I know that I must try harder and just spend more time doing my essays.
Right now, beside my revising, doing some personal reading and writing, I've no other plans for the rest of the day. The weather's not so great outside and I plan to go to the market tomorrow anyway. I'm staying the weekend at uni to revise and luckily my best friend is staying with me! So undoubted we'll be busy planning my novel and wondering which movies to watch.

Is it writer's block or is my brain just not working today?

Once again my uni work is giving me some trouble. I'm really struggling to write my crit theory essay. It didn't help that all the books I needed had all ready been taken out of the LRC and my tutor demand to see a plan with a draft by next lesson. My mind keeps wondering to other things and I just seem unable to form the words to type on the blank screen, which seems to be taunting me with its whiteness. The fact I also feel sleepy and perhaps coming down with something.... also doesn't help me. I wouldn't really mind the fact I can't write it but it also seems to have effecting my other writings and with my normal stress reliving technique gone, I'm find that its worrying me a lot more then it should be. It the minute I'm feeling kind of numb, sort like I've no energy and the world of nice dreams and relaxing is calling to me. I've a day left for my essay, it can wait just a little longer, maybe its time to let the wings of sleep bore me away to a place of no worries?

Crazy uni essays!

Like most good students I try to plan ahead with my essays. You know, get them done the week before so if I have a workshop class on them or because I need the time to go back through it before submitting it. So today I was sure I was on top of my 4 essays for creative writing and my 1 for English lit but then I discovered on top of my exam for Eng lit 2, I also have a 2000 word essay to write! I couldn't believe it! Suddenly my plan was thrown out of the window, I've had to postpone my nights of partying and hanging out with my friends, just so I've got the time to write the essay. To add to my worries I thought I'd got my two module reflections for both my creative writing classes sorted, but it turns out that I've made a really mess of them and now must spend tonight rewriting them! I doubt this will take my long though, but still it is work I don't really want to do right now! They need bibliographies though. My other two essays are stories and well due to a workshop yesterday my 1st story of 1000 words had to get rewrote because people just didn't get it and were confused. I rewrote it yesterday and today rewrote my self-assessment too. That one is now done! My second one was turning a song into a story and I've done this, but it might need redrafting again and I now think I've lost the self-assessment and bibliography on my main computer too now. More work to do there and oh, don't get me started on my essay for English. Its a presentation too and well beside from the intro and a rough plan, I've not done anything else on it. That'll be my task for the whole of tomorrow now. So my essay for my other English class is about a theory of lit in one of the books we've studied. I've decided to do some poems and write about feminism, because I've not wrote about it before and the rules about doing my exam paper are just crazy! Like you can't write about one theory if you've used it in the critical essay or in the question above. They like to make things hard don't they?
I know its uni and is meant to be harder than every other eduction stage but really, its only my first year and I've had a lot to learn, take in and party, so I don't really need a difficult last two weeks of teaching now. But there is nothing I can do about it, so I'll drag on and just hope that there's some luck on my side to pull me though it.

History and the future in the making

In the post below is my short story that I've written for my last piece of fiction work. It's just over a 1000 words and is as the title suggests about a master thief who changes his colours so he can kind of protect the world from finical disaster. Anyway, I'm eager to think what people out there think of it, so just let me know! It's the first time I've done this too so I'm kind of scared about it but I've been listening alot to people who think that I can really get into publishng my stories by puting them on the internet, I hope it works! They suggested some more sites so I'll be going to look at them too but remember it was first put on here! :)
Not alot has happened since my last post early. My mum finished off my jumper and now I've only 3 days left till I return to uni! So happy, can't wait to catch up with everyone....though the dread of packing is slowly getting to me. that'll be a task for tomrrow now. I might stop writing this and let you get on with reading my story.

The Colours of a Thief

The street lamps flickered on; their light fell upon the cobble stones as the trickling water from the fountain echoed in the town centre. The shops were closed; except for one whose neon light flashed; ‘Ma’s Café’.
Outside a blue car was parked, rusting away, but it did its job with pride. A tall figure sat behind the wheel, a wide brim hat pulled down over his eyes.
Running footsteps broke the silence and the man’s feet held steady on the cobbles as he rounded the fountain. He glanced over his shoulder. His breathing was deep and his right arm ached from carrying the heavy carpet bag.
A pack of German Shepherds burst into the town centre behind him. The dogs’ loud barking echoed and blood lust was in their eyes.
He turned the corner and stopped dead in the empty road.
The dogs’ barking increased and he spun on his heels to face them. Switching the carpet bag hand and drawing a gun from his hip. He knocked the safety off and squeezed the trigger.
The car quickly pulled beside him and stopped.
He paused.
As the first dog rounded the corner, he tore open the door and throwing himself into the passenger seat. The dog jumped against the door causing it to slam shut in his face. Huge jaws snapped at the window but the car screeched off leaving the dog howling in pain.
*
Ma Clancy crossed the floor, a coffee tray balanced on her hip. She stopped at a table were four men wearing black suits sat talking in low voices, “Here you go boys,” Ma’s voice called out.
An old man looked up from a newspaper. He had been studying a photograph of a young woman and the headline ‘Big Boss’s Daughter Missing.’
“Look out there,” he said.
Ma heard him as she walked past. She looked out of the window and saw the town centre covered in police officers. She placed her hands on her hips and pouted, “They’ll be in here next demanding coffee and donuts! You take my word for it!” she snapped.
The old man chuckled.
The four men stood up. One of them indicated to Ma with a nod of his head that they were going out the back door. She responded with an answering nod.
*
“Will ya get that gun out of my face?!” Sassoon snapped, hitting the gun.
“Sorry,” Felix muttered and then his tone changed, “and were where you? I said Thompson Avenue!”
Sassoon shrugged, “I misread the sign.”
Felix mumbled something. He slipped his gun back in its holder and kicked the carpet bag farther into the foot well.
“I was this close to being ripped to shreds, Sass!” Felix shouted, waving his fingers in Sassoon’s face.
“I was there, Felix,” he answered and then turned the wheel suddenly.
The car tore around a sharp corner. Sassoon’s seat belt restrained him but Felix was thrown against the window.
“Did you have to do that!?”
“I can’t help it. It’s the way the road is.”

The car drove out of town and into the forest. The headlights shone onto the little used, winding road. The side of a fallen tree caught the light and the car stopped at the end of the track.
Felix opened the door and stepped out, grabbing the bag. Sassoon followed him and they started to walk towards the cottage.
Sassoon glanced back, “We’re forgotten something,” he said, but Felix didn’t hear him.
He walked to the boot of the car. He unlocked and opened it.
The woman’s terror filled eyes met his. Her hands were tied together and she was gagged, leaving her struggling to breathe.
“Out you come,” Sassoon said.
He carried her towards the cottage, coming up behind Felix has he stepped inside.
“You should have left her there!” Felix snapped and he disappeared into the kitchen.
Sassoon went into the living room, placing the woman on the sofa. He pulled the cloth out of her mouth and she gulped down air quickly.
“How you feelin’, Miss Navarra?”
“Untie me Sass,” she whispered and held out her hands.
Sassoon nodded.
Felix appeared in the doorway.
“Ah, my ex-love! Been robbing banks again have you?”
“Of course,” Felix replied, sarcastically, as he entered the room.
“They are going to find you….”
“That’s what I’m waiting for.”
“And what do you plan to do?” she laughed.
“Let them take me,” he answered, “and then I’ll kill him.”
“I still don’t like it,” Sassoon mumbled.
“It’s the least he deserves after kicking us out! If there was more time…..” Felix clenched his hands.
A loud knock at the door interrupted the conversation and they fell silent. It was quickly followed by another as someone attempted to kick the door down.
The four men burst into the living room, large guns pointed out before them.
*
The large desk dominated the room. The chair had its back to them as they were pushed forward with guns at their backs. The door closed and the chair turned slowly around.
“Nice to see you again…Felix, Sassoon.”
Felix eyed the Boss and his hand drifted to where his gun used to be.
“Kidnapping Ren was low…” the Boss tapped his fingers together, “Where’s the bag?”
Sassoon raised his eyebrows and shot Felix a look.
Felix felt a gun dig into his back, “What bag?” he asked innocently.
“Let’s not play games, Felix….”
“Ah, the bag....I lost it.” he answered.
“I don’t believe you. Where have you hidden it? Tell me!”
Felix shook his head, “So you can use them to take over the world?”
“That’s none of your business,” The Boss snapped.
“Oh, I think it is! I was the one who collected them all! I travelled the world for you, gathering them, being your puppet! But not now! I won’t let you do this....”
“So you’ll do it instead, Master Thief?”
Felix gritted his teeth, “I’m not a thief.....” he yelled and spun around.
He kneed the man behind him and grabbed the falling gun. He fired two shots and screaming echoed in his ears.
“Let’s go!” he yelled.
He and Sassoon bolted out of the door in a hail of bullets.
“Head to the cars!” Sassoon shouted, “I’ll get us out of here.”
They arrived at the car park before anybody else. Quickly Sassoon slipped behind the wheel of a Mercedes and started the engine. Felix scrambled in beside him. Sassoon put his foot down and the car shot off, leaving the sound of guns firing in its wake.

An hour later the Mercedes sat outside the cottage. Sassoon and Felix were filling the blue car with their stuff.
“Got everything?” Sassoon called, as he poked his head around the kitchen door.
“Just this,” Felix answered, tapping the open carpet bag.
“Do we really need the money?”
“It’s not money, my old friend...it’s more of a way of getting it.”
Sassoon’s face became puzzled, “What’s in the carpet bag, Felix?” he asked.
Felix smiled, turned the bag upside down and the dull thud of papers hitting the table rang in their ears.
Sassoon pulled a sheet over to him; his eyes scanning the blue lines and the title at the top. His mouth fell open and Felix’s smile grew wider.

"And how much do you want off?"

That's the ultimate question for me today. I've been to the hair dresses and for most people going there is just a normal thing, a common part of their lives. But for me it is not. I remember being young and having such short hair I looked like a boy. I so hated having my hair done that I'd fight back and so once I was old enough to decided things for myself, I choice to grown my hair long. So the last time I had my hair cut to any really length was eight years ago. It's so long that I can almost sit on it! But last year in the summer I decided to conquer my fear of hair dresses and go and get my hair looking good for uni. It worked well, though my hair refused to dry and I had to leave with it slightly damp. So this time it was mostly the poking of friends and the fact that I felt the need to change, that has made me go back. But it's still so long! I've had about 2/3 inches taken off then ends and this time I asked to have something of a fringe. It's grown out to but I didn't want to have a short one, just one that was still long but noticeable. I wanted it to frame my face too and it worked out really well.
I'm meeting my friends to night for bowling and though I think they will notice, they might not do because not a lot has changed! Tonight should be really great because we have the lane for the whole night, so we can have as many games of bowling as we like! Shame I can't really the last time I bowled....but I'm sure I'll pick it up again. So until then I shall try and write my reflection essay and carry on writing my newest story which is becoming a teenage romance story.

Housing Circles

As the sun pours in though the patio window and the invisible birds sing in the trees, my mind tumbles with the half remembered things about yesterday's arguments. In the background, Lost season 1, episode 8 is on TV as I desperately try to catch my brother up in watching it. Like yesterday though, its a battle I already know I've lost....There have been many problems with getting a house for next year. I need a place to stay in the town next to my uni as I can't get back into halls and I live an hour and a half way, I don't drive and so would have to deal with public transport or pool all my money into driving lessons and a car ext. I thought things were at last working out when the two boys agreed to join us. But clearly I was counting my eggs before they hatched -no Easter pun there!-because one of the boys started a fight over the rooms. He wanted everyone to draw from a hat for the rooms as we did in the beginning but since then the two other girls switched rooms. So much of yesterday was spent fighting about this and there was no way I was giving up. I love my room, its the one I wanted from the very start and by some chance of Fate I drew it from the hat the first time around. So there was just no way I was going to risk it again. The others were also unhappy with this and then things got worse, there was talk of him and one of the girls leaving and there was also the fact that he claimed the landlord had told him that if anyone else pulled out he was going to really find another group to live there. So I once again became the peace maker of my friends and we at last come to an agreement about it; if he could have the garage for his car then he'd let this go. So it was agreed and I closed the book on another battle. Now I'm praying nothing else goes wrong because really I don't think I'll be able to win another fight. I've not the strength in me to do so and I must focus on my work now to make sure I pass my first year. At least I'm getting somewhere with it. 2 essays down, 2 more to go, a presentation that first must be an essay and then revising for my exam. I'm glad of the work though, its keeping me busy during the three weeks I've got off now. Also I'm looking forward to the more warmer weather now....it might bring me some better luck because really I've been having alot of bad luck lately.

What to take and what to leave.

Well, I'm nearly packed to go home for three weeks now! The last things I must pack are; my bedding, my diary, story notebook, novels I'm reading now and my plants. I've spent much of today packing and though I know its only three weeks and then I'm back for like four weeks then, I know that if I leave something behind that I now think I won't need I'll need it! So I must take everything, but what really can be left behind. But it's amazing the amount of stuff I've been hording in my uni room since I started! Non of my friends seem to have as much stuff as I do, so where has it all come from and how as it managed not to clutter up my room and turn it untidy? I don't have the answers to these questions, I just knew that tomorrow I'm luckily my mum decided to pick me up, as it means she'll bring the Town Ace! (For those that don't know, the Town ace is my family's huge eight seater, mini bus like car from Japan. The seats in the back folded down to make a double bed, all the windows have electric curtains, there are three sunroofs, a hot and cold box and one of my fav things is that it goes really, really fast. It's so funny when people try to over take it-thinking its a slow car-and then you put your foot down and shot off in it. I always laugh at their shocked faces.) I love the Town Ace so much! But yeah, hopefully all my stuff will fit in it and be able to come home with me.
Today the only thing I had to go to was my tutorial at 1:20pm. My normal life class lesson was cancelled because of this. So I went with one of my friends who had the time slot before me. We got to the room and though we were only meant to have five minutes each the girl before us took up forty minutes! She must have had something good to say...the only thing we had to say was about the next essay and it turned out we knew what we were doing anyway. Best news though! I got my book signed! Happy! So that's mostly it for today as I slept the morning away due to going to bed at two in the morning.
Last night I suddenly and surprising decided to go to the venue with one of my friends. I decided I would wear my skirt. So that would be the Fourth time I've worn a skirt since 1999 (It's a long story!) It was good really. I took lots of photos and danced, though I did moan about wanting to leave a lot, but that was only because it got really busy with drunk people, the music wasn't that bad most of the time and I guess I just got bored. I'm not so good at dancing and I don't really drink. But somehow I ended up staying till it closed at one. Then I wondered back to my friends where we listened to more tasteful music in the form of Linkin Park! And I read the director's diary/scrap book of filming Twilight and went into a fantasy world about James, because there was a photo of him half naked. (Forget about Edward, Jacob, Jasper etc! James is mine!) So then I went to bed.
So what am I doing now? Well I'm watching Princess Mononoke with friends and hopefully I shall get an early night later. Then I've only three more hours of lesson tomorrow before I'm FREE! Half term here I come!

Yesterday catch up.

I'm balancing a bowl of honey nut clusters on my knee that I'm eating with yogurt. (Though I had milk it seems that someone has drunk it all, though it is clearly labeled 'do not drink because I can't have normal milk due to being lactose intolerant' so it seems they clearly didn't care because they typical students.) I was listening to breakfast news but once again my TV signal is playing up, so I've given up with that now, nothing much happening out there anyway. so I'll find some heavy metal and put that on (hopefully most people are awake now and if not then its revenge for drinking my milk!) Ah, Iron Maiden, very sweet music to my ears.
I would have typed this blog yesterday but it was already two in the morning, so you can sort of see why I didn't bother. It was strange because I wasn't working or partying, I had been talking to three different people-one after the other-and just lost track of time and really what we were talking about, it was mostly random stuff anyway; more student adventures (such as my 2nd friend, who at two in the morning got locked out of her room and had to run to the security hut in just a skimpy night dress.) boyfriends, essays, books we were reading, house plans for next year, the photos I just put up on Facebook, sleeping problems and lost umbrellas.
Wow, just got two text messages at once! one about my friend who was waiting for the shower and the other from my friend who's just got out of class. Anyways.....
Yeah, I did a lot of talking last night and before that I'd spent three hours in the woods with my friends. We've been meaning to go and explore the woods for awhile now and we finally got around to doing it yesterday! And surprisingly for a bunch of older teenagers and two adults, we all had a great time. I took over hundred photos, most of them turned out really great and some of them are just silly. People seemed to like them though-I had twenty-eight emails from Facebook about the comments left on them alone! So in the woods we; climbed trees, rock faces, had stick fights and threw pine cones at each other. Plus one my friends sort of got really hyperactive and spent much of her time running around-she blamed it on the snowballs she'd eaten for breakfast, but really I think the sense of being free out doors went straight to her head.....We only came back because it suddenly got really cold and shockingly we arrived back at uni just before heavy rain hit. I'm so glad we weren't caught in that! And since then it's hardly stopping raining and there are now gale force winds too.
We're meant to be going to Liverpool today too.....not really shopping, just wondering around and window shopping, though I'd like to get my hands on Saxon's new CD! So I hope the weather sorts its self out in the next hour or so. I also need to pack to go home. Can't believe that it's half term on Friday and we get three weeks off! My biggest problem is what do I take home with me? How will I know if I really need something during the break? I'm so trying not to empty my whole uni room, but its hard because I want to sort my bedroom out (I'm one of the population who live in a box bedroom) and its like if I leave it now, I'll only have to try and fit it in somewhere when I come to empty my room when I leave.....I guess it wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have between fifty and sixty books in my cupboard right now! (endless trips to charity shops selling books at three for a pound and I had two hundred pounds from uni to spend on stuff I need for my course, but I had a lot left over and so most of that has gone on random books that I might never get round to reading anyway!)
Wow, the wind's so howling through the gaps in my window now.....time for lunch, I think I've moaned enough now.

Friday Night at Home!

I've been having a bad week but things are at last turning around now! First off, of course its Friday and I've come home to spend the weekend with my family! And as I spent last weekend at uni, its so great to be home and being licked and pawed to death by my dog. Clearly she has missed me as much as I've missed her! Secondly, I've now got a place to live next year! briefly because its a long story; I and four friends decided to live together in a house next year, well staring from September, when we go back to uni-so we spent ages looking for a 5 bedroom house that ticked all the boxes for everyone and that everyone liked. We final found one and I thought everything was going to work out....then one of the girl's pulled out and another soon followed her. This was way out of my control and they had good reasons too. So between me and the two girls that were left we decided to look for another house. This failed. so we decided to ask two more people to join us in the house we all liked. so after more talks and messing about, I called the landlord on Wednesday and he got back this afternoon and told me we could live there again! So things are looking great there now. I get the house I want and get to be with the people I really want to live with. Now I'm just praying that nothing else goes wrong.......so the next good thing today is; I've got another 3 essays out of the way now! So I've only like 8 and an exam to do and then I've finished my first year at uni. Wow, that's scary! It's gone far too fast, but I've been having so much fun though and I've meet some great people and made some even greater friends...next good thing then! This time next Friday I'll be on half term for 3 weeks! Of course like a good student I'll be studying hard and doing all my work....AS IF! I'm gonna go wild and try to write some more of my story. and I think the final, well the second final thing is that my aunt's coming to visit on Sunday-as well as it being mother's day. Last thing because I clearly have written a lot and you must be bored of reading this now is that I'm happily listen to all my music on the main computer-my laptop''s busy having problems connecting to my home Internet- which is being shuffled about. so I've just heard MCR and now I've got Meat Loaf. Right that is enough writing for one day! Off I go to poke Facebook now.......

Freedom! (It's over at last)

Done my work now! Another stress out of the way and now I'm free for the rest of the night.....Shame I don't feel like going out of that, but I'm hoping my favourite band: Iron Maiden will cheer me up. Their album Dance Of Death is on and its the one gig I want to see them at. It was way cool, they had a huge Eddie and a tank! I wish I could have gone to see them this year...but there was no way I could get down to London for it! Anyway I hope they play in Manchester again soon.....Listening to Bruce Dickinson also reminds me of the time I e-mailed his radio show on BBC 6. I asked him to play Alestorm's Captain Morgan's Revenge and he played the Huntsmaster instead, though I really didn't mind that.....but he could have got my name right! lol, my friend told me to stop ranting on here, guess its not working...must be one of those days. Strange my Media player has now decided to play Guns and Rose's Sympathy for the Devil right though Maiden....It's not even set on shuffle. But I won't complain about that as it is the end song to one of my favorite films.
Tonight it feels strangely quiet in my hall. Makes me wondered where everyone has gone off to. I guessing the Venue or Liverpool. Places I'd like to go but I fear I've no energy left now. Plus the other problem I now have is that I'm stuck in my bean bag chair....serves me right of jumping right in the middle of it,I guess....man, this is gonna take awhile to get out off......

My first Blog.

So, here is my first blog on Blogger.com and already I've had a bit of trouble starting out. This is mostly to do with the fact I needed to create another email address this time at Google to be able to get on to here. Perhaps there was a way to get around this, but my web skills are limited in that area, so I decided to just do it. I've four email address now!
Okay, so really this is my second Blog. I use to blog at myspace.com but it seems to be become one of those lesser used websites now and well the main reason of me now blogging on here is because my tutor-Andy Remic-of life class (Which I'm taking as part as my creative writing course at Edge Hill Uni! (But more on that later)) asked the whole class to blog on here and then send him the link. Oh and just if your wondering where you might know that name from, it's because he's a published author-something I'm hoping to become one day!
I'm currently listening to Meat Loaf's Hot Summer Night, which seems to fit the weather outside today. It's amazing sunny and warm! (and that's saying something because Spring has only just arrived.) There are like students everywhere enjoying it and here is me stuck inside my room pondering my next move in writing the next question in my 24 hour exam.....
Don't even get me started on it! I mean really, what strange person came up with the idea of giving English Lit-(yeah I take that too, joint with creative writing.) students a paper to do over 24 hours mixed in with everything else they have to do? (such as sleeping, eating, going to class, partying, drinking and sleeping again?) and on a great summer like day today? Still I guess if it was raining I'd be still complaining about it.....but at least I've only one more question to answer now!
Now I'm listening to Dragonforce -Dawn Over A New World. You know the shuffle button is an amazing thing.....
It's nearly four now, I guess I should try and do my question now...
Guess I might come back on here and write some more after. ....Hope my luck lasts!